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I have an algebra test tomorrow.
And this test that determines how dumb I am in Bio.
I also have to take the test in the next few weeks that determines rather I graduate or not. Woo.
I'm feeling optimistic, but somewhat pessimistic right now about a certain issue. I believe one day I'll achieve my dream on some level, but I'm not getting any younger. I haven't gotten even locally famous. My parents are too freaking realistic and cheap to think 'hmmm, maybe our daughter has a huge dream and the talent to achieve it and it's stupid to hold her back because we're cheap and don't feel like doing what it takes to help her do what she wants to do in life?' I mean I've grown up thinking that, by this time, I'd be somewhere, thanks to my parents who encouraged my wild mind to continue scheming and dreaming, thinking this dream would be something I'd forget by the time I turned this age. Well, they were wrong. And there's nothing else I want to do but perform and write. All legends and huge stars started out at a young age. Fergie...Drew Barrymore...Michael Jackson<3...and here I am, fifteen, and I can probably count all the performing arts-related things I've done on one hand. My mom always says 'Livvie, do plays and stuff closer to home. If you're meant to be famous, something will come to you, you won't go to them' bullshitty excuse, mother. This is a 2-mile-big town in Nowhere, Indiana. I swear, once I get my license, I'm outta here for a while. Once I turn eighteen, I'm gone for good.

Wow...I think the worst feelings just hit me; almost as bad as when my brother almost moved. One of the worst feelings I think you can have is knowing there's something in your life that you've wanted more than anything, that you will never have. That really sucks big time.
So, bottom line, I can't let this feeling have its way. You *will* see my name in lights, I *will* make a name for myself, and I *will not* just come-and-go. I'm gonna make it, and I'm gonna be there to stay.

-Olivia Ann McFarland